I am 25 and I am ok with that

Well July 23, 2011 has come and gone! I am twenty-five and I am ok with that! I have a feeling this is going to be the best year of my life and I could not be more excited now I am ready to turn thirty, yes you heard me I am ready to turn thirty the big 30. Who would have ever thought I would have said that...not me, and I am sure you didn't either but I am ready for this life!

My birthday couldn't have been more perfect, and I couldn't have asked for better people to celebrate my day of birth with!

Gifts oh the gifts couldn't have been more personal, more me, more perfect. I got the prettiest sunflowers you have ever seen, the prettiest Pandora bracelet anyone could ever have, the most meaningful cut out art/quotes I could have ever dreamed of a friend making for me, a ring that is me and has much meaning behind it and to me, the perfect black toms and black oversized bow flats, the most girly'est', blingi'est' Michael Kors watch a girl could ever dream of, a cute indie purse (yes I needed it), and awesome nail polish art, stickers whatever they are...they are by far amazing and I hope to NEVER paint my nails ever again in my life (come on Sally I need you to start making a bigger selection) and the list goes on!

Thank you all so much, I love you all!
(I am trying my hardest not to say that gosh awful hick word "y'all"! Why you ask...well let me tell you I recently started a new job and I can't have these people thinking/knowing me as the most southern, country bumpkin they have ever heard talk...yes this job is in Lubbock so you would think they would be use to it, well apparently I am something different, one of a kind and it has only been one week down and I am already known as the girl with this strong country PRETTY accent that says "y'all"...what is PRETTY about this I feel like I am being made fun of because I mean I thought everyone should talk like this we are from Texas, but I guess not...people come in my office, or call my phone just to hear this famous accent and especially the word "y'all" well jokes on them now after the first five people I caught on and I have now adopted this word "you all" it's hard and it kills me, but I will NOT be known as the girl with the accent)

Now come on twenty-five I am ready for you!

25 in 21 days...that's half way to 50

So on July 23rd I will be turning 25...I am having a really hard time with this...I am not ok with this...I mean 25 that is HALF WAY TO 50...I don't want to be 25 I don't I don't I don't I just don't...everyone says that is it probably going to be the best year of my life...I just don't see it I don't, I can't and I won't I don't want to be 25 ugh ahhh wahhhh!

Well ever since I have been little I have had HUGE birthday wish lists so here goes my 25 wish list! I know some things are extravagant but hey a girl can dream right! So here goes nothing! (So Momma and everyone else I hope you are paying close attention to this)

1. Nissan Cube (white)


2. iPad 2 (white)


3. James Avery

Cross Charm
Peace Bracelet
Ring size 9

4. Toms size 9 - Red Canvas Classics


5. Toms size 9 - Natural Canvas Classics

6. Toms Size 9 - Black Stone-Washed Twill Classics

7.  Cupcake Lip Calm - Urban Outfitters


8. Holga 35mm Camera (mint green) - Urban Outfitters


9. Steven Tyler's book & Chelsea Handler's book


10.  Coach Poppy Perfume


11. Target & iTunes gift cards



12. Mustache Keychain - Urban Outfitters


13. Mustache Flask - Urban Outfitters


14. Ray Bans
Aviators
Pink Wayfarer


15. Journal


16. Rilakkuma Bear iPhone 4 - Cover


17. Michael Kors - Watch



Well that is my 25th birthday wish list...let's see what I get off of it!

M.I.A. in the blogging world

I haven't blogged in such a long time...I have done so much since my last post, learn how to make tortillas, gone on vacations, fun field trips with my kids at work, and had a horrible sunburn...

Went to San Antonio and had so much fun, everything is so pretty there, but good lord it is TOO hot there. While in San Antonio we got to do a lot of fun things, eat at a lot of great restaurants, do good shopping (they have the worlds greatest Ross), and explore the wonderful flea market.

1) We (seven of us) enjoyed and wonderful three pound yes THREE pound cinnamon roll at a bakery named LuLu's it was on Man vs. Food, we didn't even eat half of it, but it was very amazing.

2) My niece Olivia was such a trooper at the flea market it was so hot.

3) Just driving there I captured such a beautiful sunset I fell in love with this picture.

4) Corn in a cup MY FAVORITE the number one reason I love going to the flea market in San Antonio.

I learned how to make tortillas at work, because one of our classes did them on their "Journey to Mexico" it was a lot of fun, but a lot of work, and I couldn't seem to get them round to save my life!

Went to Ballinger (the place that I hope to call home someday) I love it there, it is such an old town, full of pretty vintage houses, I love it there just absolutely love it there. Aunt Femia and Baby went with us. It was a ton of fun I drank, I danced, I had fun.

Baby is such a sweet little boy full of so much life and love for everyone!

I Want...

I haven't blogged in a long time and that upsets me I want to blog everyday, but lately I have had so many things going on, but I haven't had much to say. I have been thinking a lot and in my head I have made this list of things I want to start doing.

• I want to become closer to Jesus, I want to find a church that is full of happiness and love.
• I want to become closer to my family, and closer to Peewee's family.
• I want to volunteer to help anyone and everyone.
• I want to stick to my diet not to loose weight for looks, but to loose weight to be healthy. 
• I want to ride my bike everyday and enjoy this beautiful world we live in.
• I want to read my Bible front to back, back to front.
• I want to take tons of pictures everyday.
• I want to work harder at everything I do, job, relationships, and everything.
• I want to find myself and know that is who I am and I want to be happy with that.

I have been thinking about all of these things lately and it has been bugging me that I do not go to church and that I am not close to Jesus, but I have this huge love for Him and I talk to him everyday all day long. 

I am very close to my family and Peewee is very close to his family, but I want to be close to his family and I want him to be close to my family, I want his family to be close to me and I want my family to be close to him. We plan on spending forever with each other, but I want it to be each other and our families.

I want to volunteer to do anything...I hate seeing homeless people out and having to beg for money, yes I know most of y'all say well then get a job we have a job, but maybe it isn't that easy for them to "get a job". They obviously don't have a car, or a place to stay. So that means they don't have a secure transportation and they don't have a place to shower, get ready, rest, eat hot meals, etc. Who knows they may not even be homeless but that is something they will have to talk to Jesus about when they go to Heaven. I just know the feeling I get inside when I help someone out and the smile on their face, or the nice words they have to say...it means so much to me.

I am starting on the HCG diet again starting tomorrow and I really want to stick with it this time...I want to live a healthy life, I don't want to have any medical problems, and I want to help my family be healthy as well. I don't need people to do it with me, but I do need support and motivation, because it is very hard for me to stick to something especially when food seems to be my security.

I want to read my Bible everyday I have decided when I get the urge to get on Facebook all day, everyday I am just going to pick up my Bible and read a couple of pages. I will be carrying it around with me everywhere and I am going to start blogging my favorite scripture of the day and I think this will keep me motivated to read my Bible more and more and more.

I will be taking pictures of everything that happens in my life every day from here on out. It maybe annoying to some, but I love pictures I love the memory that a picture holds even when it just a day old.

I think everyone should work as hard as they possibly can even if it is hard. I know nothing at all comes easy anymore and I plan on giving two hundred and fifty precent at everything I do with my job those kids deserve the world and I plan on trying my hardest to give it to them, to my fiance he is such a hard working man and he deserves the greatest wife ever that loves him more than anything in this world and I am going to try my hardest to be that soon to be wife, and to every other relationship I have with everything and everyone else.

Now about finding myself...I know who I am so let's not think wow she is twenty-four and doesn't know who she is yet. No that is not the case at all I know exactly who I am and I am very happy with the young lady I have become I just want it to shine out and come out more and more and more every single day.

I hope everyone had a great Monday.

Goodnight world, goodnight moon, goodnight cupcake, goodnight lucy girl.

What The Blog...

Well the thirty day picture challenge is over...so what do I blog about now....I loved that challenge I took on and some days it was hard, some days it made me cry, the pictures brought back the awesome memories that I shared at the time of the picture, and I can't wait to have my blog book made to remember the memories forever and see what I had blogged about since I got started with this new craze called "blogging." I am so addicted, I am addicted to reading blogs, browsing blogs, following blogs and just reading all of my blog post over and over again.

This month has been a kind of a sad month...it all started when Frank Rodriguez passed away he is my fiances brother's father-n-law, and he was a great man, father, grand-father, and friend. He touched so many peoples lives including mine! It was really nice being their to celebrate the day he went to go dance with the angels! 

Being at Frank's funeral also made me feel a lot better about my MawMaw not being here anymore...listening to everything the Father had to say and taking it all in made me realize that death is a good thing and isn't this horrible thing that I think about all the time :: MawMaw is so much happier now, yes she misses us, yes she thinks about us (just like we think about her), yes she watches over us, yes she is still getting to watch all her soap operas in Heaven (this time it is just on a really really really big screen t.v.), yes she still gets her coffee, yes she has her puppy Bailey back with her, yes she gets to go shopping, yes she still eats Dairy Queen steak fingers, yes she enjoys the view, yes she is having the time of her life, yes she is ok, and last but not least she is a million and ten times better in Heaven than she ever was here! I am finally ok with all of that and having that feeling makes me feel so much better than I have ever felt before. Today for the first time in a really long time I went to go visit her at her grave site and I talked to her for a really long time I had SO much to tell her, when I was finished talking to her a gust of wind came and I knew it was her giving me a big ole hug! I walked away smiling instead of crying and I am so excited about this! I feel like I can finally move on because I know she is ok and I know she is with me and watching over me everything single day until we meet again!

Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven 

where the love of our lost ones shines down to let us know they are with us.

Someday and someday soon I will own this painting to hang in our living room!

Day Thirty

Day thirty - a picture of someone you miss!

I miss you more and more each and every day and think about you all the time! The times I had with you were the most memorable times ever and I cherish them so much! I love you MawMaw, you are an amazing and beautiful lady and I was so proud to have a grandmother like you!

Day Twenty-Nine

Day twenty-nine - a picture that can always make you smile.

Hmm...I have so many of my goofy soon to be husband and every single one of them make me bust out laugh and put a smile on my face...so we will go with the most recent one. ENJOY!

Day Twenty-Eight

Day twenty-eight - a picture of your favorite movie.

I love movies, just like I love music. I have a TON of favorite movies.

Day Twenty-Seven

Day twenty-seven - a picture of yourself and a family member.

She is a huge part of our little family!

Wouldn't trade her for the world even though she is a brat sometimes!

Day Twenty-Six

Day twenty-six - a picture of something that means a lot to you.

 

The kids I teach at school! They teach me something new every single day!

Day Twenty-Five

Day twenty-five - a picture of your favorite day of the week.

Day Twenty-Four

Day twenty-four - a picture of something you wish you could change.

I wish I could change death because I was not ready for my Mawmaw to go when we lost her to cancer three years ago and I still have not been able to get over her death! I know we all live and we all die, but it is really hard for me to be ok with especially since I wanted her to be here forever!

Day Twenty-Three

Day twenty-three - a picture of your favorite book.

This is a picture of my Bible and it means the world to me 

Callie Faye gave it to me and told me

Jesus and I will always love you Ms. Stephanie!