Well the thirty day picture challenge is over...so what do I blog about now....I loved that challenge I took on and some days it was hard, some days it made me cry, the pictures brought back the awesome memories that I shared at the time of the picture, and I can't wait to have my blog book made to remember the memories forever and see what I had blogged about since I got started with this new craze called "blogging." I am so addicted, I am addicted to reading blogs, browsing blogs, following blogs and just reading all of my blog post over and over again.
This month has been a kind of a sad month...it all started when Frank Rodriguez passed away he is my fiances brother's father-n-law, and he was a great man, father, grand-father, and friend. He touched so many peoples lives including mine! It was really nice being their to celebrate the day he went to go dance with the angels!
Being at Frank's funeral also made me feel a lot better about my MawMaw not being here anymore...listening to everything the Father had to say and taking it all in made me realize that death is a good thing and isn't this horrible thing that I think about all the time :: MawMaw is so much happier now, yes she misses us, yes she thinks about us (just like we think about her), yes she watches over us, yes she is still getting to watch all her soap operas in Heaven (this time it is just on a really really really big screen t.v.), yes she still gets her coffee, yes she has her puppy Bailey back with her, yes she gets to go shopping, yes she still eats Dairy Queen steak fingers, yes she enjoys the view, yes she is having the time of her life, yes she is ok, and last but not least she is a million and ten times better in Heaven than she ever was here! I am finally ok with all of that and having that feeling makes me feel so much better than I have ever felt before. Today for the first time in a really long time I went to go visit her at her grave site and I talked to her for a really long time I had SO much to tell her, when I was finished talking to her a gust of wind came and I knew it was her giving me a big ole hug! I walked away smiling instead of crying and I am so excited about this! I feel like I can finally move on because I know she is ok and I know she is with me and watching over me everything single day until we meet again!
Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven
where the love of our lost ones shines down to let us know they are with us.
Someday and someday soon I will own this painting to hang in our living room!
The part about your Mamaw made me cry, your words made me remember to think of my grandfater and that he is in such a better place, getting to play baseball again and with a full head of hair instead of shaving it for chemo. You made my day Stephanie. Death is a very sad time, but we forget that they are in a better place...thank you for that.
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